(Note on back by Evelyn Coffey: Dr. Adler’s Prosody - Dec. 12, 1934 - Character Sketch, Free Verse)
I am Petrouchka’s ghost.
Sometimes I sound in the wind that whines
on the house-tops;
sometimes I am smoke that is lost
in fog.
I sneer at lovers making love in the shadows,
and steer dense clouds
across the moon’s white face.
I hate love –
I who loved only as a clown
can love,
a clown with his aching, saw-dust body
and hideous, masked head –
a clown who laughs at sorrow,
holding his own heart’s segments
in his hand.
I lived for love,
daring to hope
that she could love me;
blinded to my sordidness by the smile
in her eyes;
overturned with the delicate flesh
that formed her
and the spirit that made her dancing
a flame in a sunset garden.
For an instant I was phosphorous
that sent her flame racing,
but my fire burnt out
in the wealth of hers.
I should have died, even if her lover
had not found my heart
with his curved, steel blade.
I died for love
before he swept me down . . .
while the crowd laughed.
They are laughing now
at the spirit that sneers
from the house-tops . . .
laughing at the smoke
that simmers in fog . . .
laughing at the puppet I was . . .
laughing . . .
laughing.
Evelyn Coffey